Precious Ella Marie Cope

So, I've been dealing with something privately, and quite honestly, I'm tired of it. So, for my faithful five readers, I'll unload it all on you. Today marks the end of so many things. My cousin, Hollie's mom died this morning. I wanted to say "passed away", but that just doesn't do the fight she fought any justice. I could go on and on about the poised, strong woman she was, but really you just needed to have the privilege of knowing her. She was one of those "cool moms" that was cool with all the kids, even if you weren't her own. I know she'd probably not love this picture of her from 2 years ago, but it's all I had on my computer and I don't have a scanner to scan the many other great pictures of her. Anyway, I am so exhausted from overthinking her struggle, not only over the last 3 years, or many years, but especially the last five days. I just have to say that man, it just freakin' sucks. It really does. I can only say that if you grieve without hope, you'll grieve yourself to death, so I choose to grieve with hope. I hate it for her kids and family. Hollie and I were best friends in junior high school so her mom was basically like my own mom for a couple of years. It's a tragic loss to me. The world will be empty in so many ways without her sassy, Southern, quick witted self. I'll miss her. I miss her.